i'm bored. i'm sitting in my cubicle, in front of my computer...and i have absolutely no passion...no whimsical task...no entertaining duty of any kind. how bored am i you ask? i am so bored i don't even know what to write. that's sad isn't it?! i'm a 20-something young woman. i'm living in what's supposed to be the prime of my life...and yet...i'm bored.
it's just annoying. you embark on your journey in elementary school...immediatley you begin looking forward to the dramas of high school. then when you launch your heart into high school...you are temporarily destracted before looking forward to the freedom of college. you commence your voyage in college...and you begin to look forward to the first pay check of your dream job. and let me tell you about that dream job...it's not that it doesn't exsist (who knows, maybe it doesn't), it's that you pour your heart in soul into years of studying to find a passion in life (if you're one of the lucky ones). you find yourself on graduation day...a new born being forced into the world without the comfort of your mother's breast only to find yourself 3 years later at a dead end job with the life sucked out of you.
what's even worse than all of this...beyond being bored out of my mind in a dead end job....here i sit...4:30 on a thursday afternoon...and no one sits next to me...the offices are black and the other cublices empty. what am i doing here? ...literally...and figuratively. am i here to fill my last half hour with more boredom (when clearly my co-workers are not doing the same)...before i go home, feed the fish, make something unsatisfying for dinner, and crash on the coush while i watch hours of mindless reality television until i pass out?
is this really what being in your 20s is all about? where's the freedom...the passion...the debauchery? instead i'm at a lame job, on the tightest budget of my life, and tv...as sad as it is...rules my life. but being in your 20s is supposed to be the time of your life!! and that's not even the worst and most depressing thought of them all.... if the 20s are the "fun times" in our memories, then what does that say about the decades ahead?
but for now...i'm placing the blame elsewhere. i blame our parents...our parents who brag about how wonderful their 20s were...our parents who remind us on daily basis to enjoy our 20s, after all they're the best years of our life...our parents who grew up in the 70s when there was freedom...and passion...and debauchery. all of which we're missing because of this damn age of technology...of LCD tv's, home theaters, ipods, internet, downloading, hell...even blogging.
so how bored am i? i'm bored enough to start a blog...something i know nothing about, and don't even know if anyone wants to read. but it's here...it's convenient...and it's killed off the boredom of this past half hour...which is exactly what i was looking for.
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